14/11/2013

Change: one step at a time

Weightloss Transformation

SMASH THAT GOAL

I look at this pic and I’m like omg I did that. I remember when I made a conscious decision in January 2011 to get active and start working out. I didn’t realize I was losing weight. I honestly couldn’t see it. I started feeling very self-conscious when I would meet people I haven’t seen in a while and hear the exclamation “omg what happened you lost so much weight!!” In my head, I’m like whatttttt!! I started to take the exclamations negatively because it always came across as if me losing some weight was a bad thing and it also made me feel as if I was totally obese before. I thought to myself is this natural, Am I ok? Maybe I lost too much too quickly? I didn’t feel like I was doing anything extreme. I definitely wasn’t starving myself. I wasn’t working out crazy. I just changed some habits and put more movement into my daily life. I became concerned, though. That dark part of me where my self-esteem was so low took over. I had to make appointments with my doctors to ensure that I was indeed ok and healthy. From that point on I started to really pay attention to the changes that others saw. I was aware that my waistline shrunk. I was aware of my boobs disappearing (my only objection to weight loss lol). I was aware of my fat face slimming down and that my muffin top wasn’t horrible anymore. I started embracing it, I started looking in the mirror and loving what I saw and I stopped being hard on myself. I’m currently not where the perfectionist in me wants to be but I’m comfortable and happy. I feel good and I look good.

I had to come to terms with the changes to be at the point I am today. I had to learn how to take compliments and not think of it as people’s way of being sarcastic. I had to learn to not over think an “OMG, you lost so much weight!” exclamation. I had to learn to rejoice and be proud of my dedication and hard work in losing probably over 25/30 lbs (honestly never checked my weight before beginning my goal). I enjoy fitting size 8/6 clothing and size small. I even try to get away with extra small if I can lol. This was one hurdle I had to cross and I did it without being totally aware of what I was doing. I was just driven to put my energy into exercise whenever I can. I motivated myself and I’m happy about that. Since I’m now aware of that accomplishment I did all by myself, I feel confident that I can deal with the other issues I face head on and win. So my fellow readers watch me ROARRRRRRR

 

2 responses to “Change: one step at a time”

  1. This is the closest thing to my own weight loss journey which I’ve ever read! Like you, my highest weight ever was in the 180s while my lowest has been in the 140s, and while my weight fluctuates quite a bit, I have managed to keep obesity away for nearly 6years. Great job! I know all the insecurities that come with weight loss only too well. Even to this day I still get remarks. Caribbean society is so weight-focused. I can also relate to losing your boobs with the weight loss. That’s the only part I thoroughly hate too lol.. that and a bit of extra skin and stretchmarks, but my boyfriend reminds me every time I voice some insecurity that it’s fine as my body is beautiful, it tells a story, and will remind me to always take care of myelf. I finally feel that way about it now too.

    • Laureen says:

      Oh, waw this is awesome. I’m glad you can relate. I’ve been able to keep the weight off as well but now I feel like this idea of having the “perfect” body keeps toying with me lol. I guess that’s my insecurities chatting up a storm. Glad you have the support of your bf to remind you how imperfectly perfect you are :). Thanks for taking the time to read.

I wanna hear what you think!

Latest Vlogs

%d bloggers like this: